If you are interested in vocations I suspect you go regularly to “Catholics on Call,” a website that “assists young adults to listen to God’s call in their lives.” As I looked over the site today I came on this article written by Megan Sherrier, a young graduate student at CTU. This season as we await the fullness of God’s life on earth, I want to share Megan’s profound insight. I’m wondering if you think she’s on target!
Breaking news to my fellow young adults: It is not our vocation to save the world.
Your colleges told you otherwise. Your service programs and volunteer corps advertised it as your given right. There is a drive deep within you desperately yearning to “fix things.”
You cannot.
For centuries, the most inspiring of people have given their entire hearts to the world, and yet devastation remains. Even after Mother Teresa’s lifetime of sacrificial, loving work there are still children dying on the streets of Kolkata this very day. No matter what you do, it will never be enough.
At first read, this sounds cynical and fatalistic. Rather, it is the opposite. We should all be thankful for this reality. Thank God it is not up to us! What a weight is lifted once we can surrender control back to the One who holds it in the first place! There lies a paradox that we must first deny perfection in order to affirm goodness.
Our determination to save the world can lead us to a place even darker than the troubled world which we are trying to heal in the first place. Our well-intentioned drive turns from love to frustrated anger when not emptied in faith to a power beyond ourselves.
An influential mentor in my own life has fallen victim to this “save-the-world” perspective. A powerful social worker who has dramatically shifted the lives of young families in poverty, she has been consumed by the smallness of her work. From her outlook, things are getting worse and so she has failed. Cases are more complex as drugs, mental illness and domestic violence all weave their evil threads throughout the larger loom of poverty. Because of these larger issues that still exist, this mentor has failed to see the beauty in the relationships she has built: the triumph in the once-doomed baby-turned-10 year-old honor student greeting her with a huge hug as they reunite by chance in the local CVS. She fails to see the improvements—no, not complete solutions—but stepping stones towards a warmer life full of love for those she has served.
She has trapped herself in the false image of being a human savior. We must remember that while the Savior commissioned us to love one another, Christ never bestowed his title upon us. You are not in control. You are the hands and feet of Christ on Earth today, but you must remember who created those hands and feet—Hint: It was not you!
Whatever you accomplish today has to be enough for you. You are not going to do any long term good if you cannot first love today, exactly as it is, for all it is worth. Tomorrow is too late. Our vocations have neither a geography nor a start date. This is it: right here, right now. Our vocation is our entire life, not just the highlights or glory moments.
Do not judge your success on an ability which you do not possess—to eradicate hunger, poverty, and abuse. These are worthy goals and should be the aim of how we live. However, there is something missing: Present joy in the glimpse of the Reign of God that does surround us—the homeless man’s smile, the unconditional support between abused sisters, the laughter of a child struggling with a terminal illness. Do not diminish these incredible miracles of perseverance in the pursuit of miracles of perfection. Do not ignore the blessings in front of you because you are too busy asking for more.
For all of these above examples, nothing was fixed, and no one was saved. But despite the suffering, love remained. Fr. Greg Boyle, a Jesuit priest working amidst the LA gang wars, states: “The highest form of sanctity is to live in hell and not lose hope.” Notice, he does not say the highest form of sanctity is to eradicate hell, but just to live among it and still choose to see the optimism found in love present during suffering. That is our role: to love fully, and leave the rest up to the One in charge.
Dear God, we thank you for the opportunity to taste the goodness of your kingdom, however incomplete on Earth, every single day of our lives. For in whomever we encounter, we have the chance to fulfill our vocation and encounter You.
Do not speak your Amen. Go live it through your joy in this day.
Megan Sherrier
Megan is a 2007 CoC alumna and a graduate from University of Richmond. She is currently a graduate student at CTU, Chicago.